sandcastles in the air

and its February.

Some people mentioned that as you grow older, time seems to pass faster. When i was 10, that seemed like an urban myth. Now that i am 22, that seems like Newton's 4th law. I know how everyone says "...it seems like yesterday when..."; but i have to say this, it really seems like yesterday when i took that flight to this land of the free. and it's been almost 6months.

let's see, i try to recollect and think about the things i've accomplished/tried to accomplish, i didnt get too far. It's school after all, it's just school in the middle of nowhere. I was looking forward to a lot of personal time but that didnt get too far; there're tons of activities and HOMEWORK to do. the latter is simply ridiculous because i thought when JC ended, that was the last time that term would surface in my dictionary. (i guess when real work begins there'll be 'homework' too, just that it ll be coined some other term that i ll eventually find out)

the career fair took place last week. i prepared all my resumes etc etc, went to bed at 1am, decided not to go to the fair after all at 2am. there're tons of implications... an internship = not being able to go back this summer. and since my mother really wants me to go back, i decided to give that up. on the other hand, i do sorta-kinda have a job/bond to serve, hence.. well. let's just close one eye. i mean, i actually closed both. I still try to hold on to the fact that the person up there gave me this wonderful opportunity, and i really should be contented. It's just tempting; this is a nice country to live in also. but i am resolved. i am going home. i am.

These are a few of the many thoughts that flood my head daily. I spend alot of time just building kingdoms in the air. I swear i created a whole new civilisation last week. But i guess that's just me. On another note, the retreat with inter varsity last weekend really brought me back to even look at the bible with immense thought. I know he's holding on and i just have to keep on striving; it's just reassuring to know how we're really sorta-kinda like the stuff that goes into jars of clay. hard pressed but not destroyed. We studied 2nd corinthians yes, i didnt get very deep in, but i really hope this semester shapes up well...

I am blabbering so much but i guess this post kinda encapsulates my current position in the whole spectrum of my life.


Joyce emailed me and told me about nick. i almost fainted.
Ah Lorr emailed too and updated about the whole forest she is trying to plant on her BALCONY
Panda gave a summary of the happenings back at church

So much happened! but in fact, it isnt too much. it's been SIX MONTHS.

Well, as much as i'd love to travel .... i ll be home soon.

p.s. HAPPY LUNAR NEW YEAR all:P

bye!