el futero.

hay una persona... un amigo de yo... quiere elegir una trayectoria diferente. Nosotros estuvimos hablando sobre la vida en general, pero específicamente sobre algo especial.

Espero tu eliges la trayectoria diferente y ayudame a alcanzar algo que no peudo alcanzar.

buena suerte amigo.

español...

Antonces… éste es el principio de él todo....

A hoy, nosotros tenemos clases de las ocho a las dos en la mañana. Las clases son muy interestante porque una nuevo lingua es divertido siempre. Mañana, nosotros tenemos dos examinación! El primero es un orál examinación y el segundo es un examinación de escribír. Antes de hoy, está muy difícil para mi porque yo no intiendo todos infomación! Las profesoras hablan en Español para todos las clases! In las primero y segundo dias, yo intiendo nada.

Pero, lentamente yo peudo entienda los significantes de las palabras.

A hoy yo jugué fútbol y voleibol. Entonces, estoy muy cansado ahora. Yo necessito descansar ... o yo necessito domir ... está muy importante!

Middlebury College, Vermont

so i actually didnt want to blog for this period (anyway i'm not supposed to 'communicate' in English...) but there's a rush of emotions and thoughts in my head....

There is nothing in this school except for maybe 5 big buildings, 20 smaller buildings, some fields, a chapel and tons of grassy patches.

There is nothing near this school except for a TJMaxx.

There is nothing to do here except to study or to participate in the activities within the school.

BUT,

There are mountains, there are grazing cows in the distance, there's a vast, wide blue sky, there's fresh air everyday from nature, there is a culture that promotes learning.

A liberal arts college.

The actual students here come from all over, a wide myraid of backgrounds and nationalities. 1 in 3 of the students are non-white. In here you find people with different personal passions. In here you find students from Bulgaria, Morrocco, Mauritius, and everywhere from America. In here you find people who are passionate about what they study and what they do. In here you find people who are, different.

I am not quite sure how well i fit into this culture, but this is a pretty darn good experience.

Sitting in Armstrong library, staring out into the Green Mountains of Vermont, the Sun setting in the distance giving a charming silloutte to the mountain range, and just enjoying the moment.

True, there isn't much to do here.

But,

over here you can find your passion, you can find your connection with learning, you can find a diverse group of individuals. Most importantly, you can find yourself.

Hasta Pronto my friends.

Adios.

and we're started back at one.

10,000 miles back to where we started again, and I blow life back into this page again.

Past 6 weeks back home was a rude awakening; both from God and from the past. Priorities that were foresaken in light of the new environment, primarily. But taking that journey back also brings about a certain type of haunting that inevitably ensues. A conscious effort to keep in touch is an endless cycle of trying, or die trying. At the end of the day we ask, is it worth it?

Good to see the family and all being good. Kids at church were awesome, same old, same old. Though within the blink of an eye almost everyone has grown up now. Almost... Not to mention food, which was definitely something to live for. Countless awakenings from God telling me where I had been and where I should be. Japan and Bangkok trips were nice getaways...

Friday I left.

A whole deal of apprehension and being reluctant, but here I am in the middle of nowhere in Vermont and I guess I am ready for another short (well, its not that short) in USA again.

One of the most brutal journies I've taken thus far:
SIN- TOKYO
TOKYO- CHICAGO
CHICAGO - PHILIDELPHIA
PHIDELPHIA - BURLINGTON
BURLINGTON - MIDDLEBURY

Phase 2/3.

Comenzar.

the end.

so freshmen year has officially concluded with the last paper an hour ago. I was so stressed last night i couldnt sleep. wth. first time in America. NOOB.


I don't really know if I'm in the mood for a concluding thought-type-thing.



I just want to thank God for being omnipresent in my life.
Watching over me for the past year despite my iniquities.


despite my lack of faith
despite my aloofness in this relationship with him
despite my selfishness in putting myself first
despite slipping away countless times.



and he showers upon me health
a church that feels so much like home
friends to support me
blessings upon blessings upon blessings



It's end of chapter 1 of 3 in Illinois.


I want to:
1. Eat chicken rice
2. Mambo
3. Go to Azarh and sit and do nothing
4. Play poker with the GEPs
5. Go to S-11 and do nothing

it's funny

so college begins and I thought one really weird observation was how time kind of changes. That is, the start of a new 'period' doesn't happen on Dec 31st 1159 onwards per se, it starts on ... May-ish. Because that's when the semester ends and we fly home. And as I continue writing chapter one of this fantasy I am living, I'm approaching the end as Chapter 2 patiently awaits.

I am blogging because I have FIVE days to study for 2 exams. That is too luxurious of a time-frame I believe. And since I have been the superdupermugger this whole semester, I don't think I need so much time, do I? Bottom line is.. EVERYONE ELSE HAS FINISHED THEIR EXAMS EXCEPT ME! I am sitting here in our secret room and staring out at a entity that seperates my current world from the outside. It's really just a window. But the analogy represets the disparity.

I reflect on the semester and think about the hours I've spent in the secret room. It's really just a study room but we call it the secret room to make our lives more interesting. Wow. Asians. Geniuses.

I think I am studying too much and that in itself is a failure; I didnt mean to travel 10,000 miles to come here to study so much. I could have done the same back home. I know I am a grades-whore but this is unacceptable!!!

Chapter 2 does begin on a fresh page, but Chapter 2 needs to begin with a different-minded author.

Let me get to the conclusion in the next few days before I fly, again.

Last 8 days in America! [Chapter 1 of 3]

So it's here, and today marks the beginning of very tumultuous period.

Sadly, the feeling is rather.. familiar? We've been studying way too much this semester. and this is the Zenith.

Well since a picture paints a thousand words. I have two thousand words to express so here are TWO wonderful pictures to express current moods: