Friday, May 9, 2008

the end.

so freshmen year has officially concluded with the last paper an hour ago. I was so stressed last night i couldnt sleep. wth. first time in America. NOOB.


I don't really know if I'm in the mood for a concluding thought-type-thing.



I just want to thank God for being omnipresent in my life.
Watching over me for the past year despite my iniquities.


despite my lack of faith
despite my aloofness in this relationship with him
despite my selfishness in putting myself first
despite slipping away countless times.



and he showers upon me health
a church that feels so much like home
friends to support me
blessings upon blessings upon blessings



It's end of chapter 1 of 3 in Illinois.


I want to:
1. Eat chicken rice
2. Mambo
3. Go to Azarh and sit and do nothing
4. Play poker with the GEPs
5. Go to S-11 and do nothing

Monday, May 5, 2008

it's funny

so college begins and I thought one really weird observation was how time kind of changes. That is, the start of a new 'period' doesn't happen on Dec 31st 1159 onwards per se, it starts on ... May-ish. Because that's when the semester ends and we fly home. And as I continue writing chapter one of this fantasy I am living, I'm approaching the end as Chapter 2 patiently awaits.

I am blogging because I have FIVE days to study for 2 exams. That is too luxurious of a time-frame I believe. And since I have been the superdupermugger this whole semester, I don't think I need so much time, do I? Bottom line is.. EVERYONE ELSE HAS FINISHED THEIR EXAMS EXCEPT ME! I am sitting here in our secret room and staring out at a entity that seperates my current world from the outside. It's really just a window. But the analogy represets the disparity.

I reflect on the semester and think about the hours I've spent in the secret room. It's really just a study room but we call it the secret room to make our lives more interesting. Wow. Asians. Geniuses.

I think I am studying too much and that in itself is a failure; I didnt mean to travel 10,000 miles to come here to study so much. I could have done the same back home. I know I am a grades-whore but this is unacceptable!!!

Chapter 2 does begin on a fresh page, but Chapter 2 needs to begin with a different-minded author.

Let me get to the conclusion in the next few days before I fly, again.

Friday, May 2, 2008

Last 8 days in America! [Chapter 1 of 3]

So it's here, and today marks the beginning of very tumultuous period.

Sadly, the feeling is rather.. familiar? We've been studying way too much this semester. and this is the Zenith.
Well since a picture paints a thousand words. I have two thousand words to express so here are TWO wonderful pictures to express current moods: